That was the other crucial day. That was the day I met Kyle. I really don't even know where to begin writing this post. Kyle has changed my life forever. After moving to Missouri, to leave a past of heartbreak and pain (physical and emotional) behind...Finding love...true love at 29, just 4 months after leaving an abusive marriage is not what I imagined doing. But that's exactly what I did. Bored on the computer (yes it starts with the computer...) I decided one Friday night that I was bored. My son had just left for a 12 week stay with his dad in NY. I knew all of 5 people here in Springfield Missouri. So I went online and found a guy who was just looking to have some fun one friday night. We got together, he was a bad boy, a country boy... But he didn't lie about a thing. He was blatantly honest with me, and said "You don't want to fall in love with me, I'm an asshole."
Well, he was honest! =)
But somewhere between the late night fishing trips, driving down dirt roads and dancing in the moonlight, I fell in love with this boy from the midwest. ;-)
We have been through our ups and downs. We have been through our fights, loss of jobs, moving, pregnancy, miscarriage, swimming in the rivers, fishing with a pole made out of a stick, dancing on dirt roads, sleeping under the stars, camping on the river, learning these southern ways, drug addiction, rehab, custody battles, our divorces from our ex'sand so so much more.
He has taught me that it is ok to laugh, cry, giggle, snuggle, sleep in, stay up late, play in the rain, play in the mud, try new things and so much more.
We have talked about getting married, dreamed about it. We are more like husband and wife now, than many other couples are. We decided that even with the past, how bad we were both hurt physically and emotionally in our last relationships, that we would get married in 2014. When the girls on the board talked about a group vacation in 2014, I only thought it perfect that we say "I do" with the man who has changed my life and my outlook on love, is the girls who changed my outlook on life.
These are some very special 40 women, who extended their hearts to me in my time of need the most. When I was unable to speak with my oldest two children, a custody battle with my son's father, and learning how to live 1,000 miles away from everything I knew--they were there for me. When no one else was, they were.
When I was at my lowest points in life, these girls, while they were preparing for babies of their own, helped me get ready for the baby that we were not prepared for. These girls made blankets, sent clothes, bottles, diapers, recieving blankets, socks, bibs and everything else you can imagine... So I had what I needed for my son. Because of his difficult pregnancy, I was unable to work, and made it difficult to get the things I needed, for our new arrival. Finally after months of preterm labor, not knowing if we would even make it to 26 weeks, being on large doses of Procardia to prevent labor, we welcomed our little boy, born at 35 weeks into the world. That is just what my experiences were in the first 9 months of knowing them. After the births of our babies, we have gone through just as many ups and downs together. Stay tuned to get to know us more... and hear the blog of planning a vacation for group of mommies, plan my wedding & who knows what else you will get... these are some pretty unpredictable mommies we are talking about.
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